This last month has been one of much needed self care and reflection for me. There have been other health items I needed to address, also my exhaustion, and reflecting on where I want to go in my life; along with how to go there. Living with Fibromyalgia, this can be an extremely tricky thing to do. My friends and loved ones have expectations of me. If I make plans and then cancel at the last minute, or that day, it tends to send me into a place of feeling less than. I feel guilt. Ashamed and embarrassed. This is something that all people feel due to the pressures and expectations of our social world; it’s bad manners, right?
No, it’s not. It’s important to take time to refresh your being if your going to be able to effectively give back to them. While I feel those negative feelings after checking out of my expected social or other activities, I have also learned let them go. These emotions are toxic to my self healing. I accept that I have limited energy and just can not keep up the pace that I used to run at. Still, given the social expectations it is just as important t inform my dear and dear ones that I am currently taking time for myself. I need to inform them that it is not that I don’t care about our relationship, in fact, it is the opposite. I care enough not to spend time with them. I don’t wish to dump my problems or lack of energy on their plates.
This is something that everyone, not just peers with chronic pain, forget to do; take care o our own needs first. I still struggle with this after living with Fibromyalgia for 16 years, being a professional care assistant, therapist, and a spiritual human being. I continue to learn to give to myself, and, I continue to fall back into overdrive. I have been very good at informing my relationships with loved ones and friends about my limitations. It is the negative feelings that keep creeping in. This last month, despite the unneccasary triggers of these unuseful emotions, I took time for myself. I abosuletly had to. I have goals. I have needs. I have limits. These are my self-care quotes for Feburaury. What are yours?