My partner and our daughter (27 years old) left yesterday to go to Disneyland. They haven’t been for more than 10 years and this is kind of the trip of a lifetime for them to share as adults. They both really enjoy Disneyland, while I don’t as going on rides is just too stressful and causes too much pain for me. I stayed behind to take care of our daughter’s cats and my dog. I had to rent a car in order to do this. It’s a wonderful car with leather seats, electronic starter ignition, and well I was thinking that I might take a small road trip over to the beach. Instead this week is going to be filled with more rain. We all know what weather changes bring, pain.
I could feel very upset about this development. And I do feel a little bit sad, I also feel a little upset about renting a car and not using it. This is a perfect time to try and practice what I’ve learned in the past; in the winter I have more pain and there’s no point in getting upset about it. That doesn’t mean I don’t get upset , I do, but dwelling on that feeling is not helpful when you’re in so much pain you can’t get out of bed. So while they’re in Disneyland my Rent-A-Car will sit outside and look beautiful and I will remain cozy with blankets and the cats and dog inside watching marathon episodes of who knows what on cable TV. It’s a perfect time to begin to process acceptance as winter is here and it will only get more brutal.
I’m sure there’s other peers of mine out there practicing the same thing today, so let’s all practice together.
PS, I used text to talk for this blog so forgive any errors. Have a great week and I’ll get back to you later, dear blog.